Slow day today....in honor of Remembrance Day today was a National Holiday..or 'Bank Holiday' as they say. So I treated it like a Sunday, only without the training...or my weekly cuppa coffee
( I have been cutting back). My thoughts immediately went to my dear sweet baby girl from the moment that I awoke this morning...Twenty years ago I gave birth to her. I had been in labour from the day before, but I crossed my legs tight as I wasn;t having her on a day that everyone Worldwide was reflecting on lost Veterans...so the 12th it was....She is back east in Toronto at the mo. where she has been attending University for the past 3 years. Needless to say I miss her something awful and not having her close has been difficult at best, especially on her special day....so I did what I could today...I dawned a sweater I had worn when I was pregnant with her. Yep I still have it! lol (closet sentimental hoarder here), teamed it up with one of her tanks that I had nicked from her luggage before she left in September, a pair of her discarded old warm black tights, my aging favorite Uggs that I bought years ago when I lived in Los Angeles and had bought on a weekend trip to Santa Barbara ...and my staple Burberry knock off jacket from my Paris/London Vay Kay a few years back...and off I went to skype her from the Coffee House.
my outfit for today
But.....
There was a slight snag in my plan. A couple days earlier I had made arrangements with my daughter to "Talk" and even though she wasn't looking forward to the content of that forthcoming conversation she agreed to a time that we could discuss an issue that had arose recently which escalated in a big BANG! having not dealt with the matter. So, she was really not looking forward to the talk....sure I had planned on discussing a few matters with her but I certainly wasn't goign to do it on her birthday...it was basically a fraud for my stelth plan that I had to get hre siblings, cousin, friends, together to wish her a Happy Birthday!
Unfortunately none of that came to be ....as soon as I was online there was a message waiting for me...
Daughter #3 had other plans. Lame...I was really hurt and disappointed...That was not part of the plan, clearly.
I guess I should be happy. Most parents would be thrilled if their children were has well adjusted and independent in their 20's as my children are...but frankly I miss my gilrs. So, this time in my life, though at times I do appreciate greatly the 'slow pace' of semi retirement. I mean this is the fruits of my labour right?
It's times like this that have lead me to Training, Triathlons, and Cyclocross....I have time now to explore my passions and re-invent myself. But man it's like a fish out of water....Carrying on!
Wishing my Beautiful Baby Girl a very Happy 20th Birthday today.
<3 Mama
Comments Today on the 'Stash':
As I was walking down to the Coffee House I passed the Gas Station and this Guy was shouting from his vehichle as he was getting a fill up. But I honestly didn't hear him the first time or know that he was speaking to me....I turned the second time when I finally heard him say....
"Nice Mo!" he shouted from his truck...and as I turned to say thank you and smile he gave me a thumbs up...That is waht it is all about. He has no idea that he made my day. Bless.
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All set to wish Daughter #3 Happy Birthday *sigh
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